Erika Kirk shares how faith carried her through grief after husband’s death

Erika Kirk opens up about choosing faith to carry her pain and sharing the emotional Sabbath ritual her husband Charlie creates for her each week.

“He would write me a letter every Saturday during Shabbat,” Kirk said Tuesday. Fox News Radio’s “The Brian Kilmeade Show.”

The last book her husband wrote was “Stand in the Name of God: Why Honoring the Sabbath Will Transform Your Life.” Discussing the subject, Kirk added, “So this book is now my love letter for the rest of my life.”

Kirk described the book’s publication as a “bittersweet” moment, knowing these were her husband’s last public words, and said the process forced her to confront her own pain while leaning on her faith.

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Charlie Kirk was shot and killed on the Utah Valley University campus on September 10. He left behind Erika and their two young children.

Erika Kirk said it was “heartbreaking” to watch videos of her husband with their children, but noted it was a choice to make in dark moments.

“Life is hard,” he said.

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“It’s beautiful but very difficult. And you [going to] We need to find a way. And anyone who’s been through hell and back knows that.”

Turning Point USA founder Charlie Kirk greets supporters during an event May 1 in San Diego, California. (Michael Ho Wai Lee/Getty Images)

Kirk acknowledged the low points of his grief but said those dark moments forced him to make a conscious decision to rely on his Christian faith.

“Are you [going to] Should I go to the corner, get into the fetal position and let him cry and cry? “Yes, there are moments to cry,” he said.

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“But are you going to turn that moment into something and say, ‘God, give me grace. Please give me grace. I don’t know what I am’? [going to] To do. I don’t know how I am [going to] Do it, but I know you’ll put one foot in front of the other and help me get through this, Lord.'”

Kirk said her decision to rely on her faith led her through some of the most difficult moments, including speaking at her husband’s memorial following his death.

President Donald Trump greets Erika Kirk, widow of Turning Point USA founder Charlie Kirk, during a public memorial service at State Farm Stadium in Glendale, Arizona, on September 21. (Patrick T. Fallon/Getty Images)

Tens of thousands of people attended the memorial service at a stadium in Arizona. Prior to his speech, Kirk explained that he listened to worship music and prayed before his speech at the event.

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He described the “overwhelming” support he felt when he stepped on stage.

“When you hear [a stadium] Thank God, this is a slice of heaven on earth, I don’t think anyone can put it into words. “It was incredibly powerful,” he said.

Erika Kirk, widow of Turning Point USA founder Charlie Kirk, speaks at the Turning Point USA event held at the Ole Miss Pavilion at the University of Mississippi in Oxford, Mississippi, on October 29. (Jonathan Ernst-Pool/Getty Images)

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Charlie Kirk’s latest book explores how observing the Sabbath, a day of rest practiced in various faiths, changed his life and family dynamic.

It outlines Kirk’s guidance for quieting the daily noise that consumes American life by spending one day a week away from work, society, and social media and being fully present with one’s family and loved ones.