Neighbours star Ryan Moloney breaks down as he admits he contemplated taking his own life before medical diagnosis on premiere episode of SAS: Australia v England

Ryan Moloney broke down in tears at Wednesday’s SAS: Australia v England premiere and admitted he once considered taking his own life.

The Neighbors star is one of seven Australian celebrities going head-to-head with their British counterparts on a grueling SAS selection course in Morocco.

Ryan started the episode in good spirits and took a sort of leadership role within the group.

But this put Ryan in the good graces of head trainer Billy Billingham, who worried that he might have overcompensated to make a good impression.

‘I think 12 will be roasted,’ he said.

‘You know, when you’re making choices in the old dorms, there’s always some fool who thinks he knows it all, and on the second day he’s like, “Where did he go?”

Ryan was then called in by the trainers for his first interrogation of the season, which started with the trainers asking for details about his life and upbringing.

The actor admitted he had a difficult childhood before taking on the role of Jarrod ‘Toadfish’ Rebecchi in Neighbours; he played this role for nearly 30 years.

When asked how it affected him to play a role for so long, Ryan admitted that his time on the long-running series was “hectic.”

‘This is a very hectic time; “When you go to work you’re in this headspace for 12 hours, then you go home and try to set up family life and the next day you learn your lines so you don’t really take a break,” he said.

‘But for a long, long time I’ve been forcing myself to do this: “There are neighbors, but I need something else.”‘

Ryan admitted that he threw himself into the business of buying and renovating property, which only served to increase his stress.

‘So you’re selling and buying property, building farms, building houses and building places, it’s one of the most stressful things you can do,’ he said.

‘[You’re] ‘The constant relocation of the family and ultimate stress after stress after stress.’

Ryan could no longer hold back his emotions and burst into tears as he admitted that he had considered taking his own life before he was diagnosed with ADHD.

He went on to admit that he could barely shake off the stress and felt as if he didn’t measure up at all.

‘I never really took a break. “It’s always pedal, pedal, pedal and nothing is ever good enough,” he said.

Ryan could no longer hold back his emotions and burst into tears as he admitted that he had considered taking his own life before he was diagnosed with ADHD.

“I found myself standing in a paddock and saying: ‘If this is it, I don’t want to do this anymore,'” he shared.

‘Then it was like: “Okay, okay, that’s not the answer, I need to respond to what’s going on in my head.” ‘I was later diagnosed with ADHD.’

When instructors asked how his diagnosis had changed him, Ryan admitted it was one of the best things that had ever happened to him.

‘When I got this diagnosis, it was the best news I’ve ever heard, because now I understand why my brain is doing this, I now understand why I see things so differently,’ he said.

Elsewhere in the episode, Ryan lashed out at his fellow cast members after the group was punished for not filling their water bottles completely.

The actor admitted he had a difficult childhood before taking on the role of Jarrod ‘Toadfish’ Rebecchi in Neighbours; he played this role for nearly 30 years. Pictured in its neighbors’ heyday

‘When I got this diagnosis, it was the best news I’ve ever heard, because now I understand why my brain is doing this, now I understand why I see things so differently,’ he said

As punishment, the soldiers had to pour the contents of the bottles over their heads, which Ryan did not like.

‘Fill your damn water bottles first,’ he shouted.

‘Use your glasses to drink here so you always have a full bottle.’

UK social media star Gabby Allen asked Ryan: ‘What’s your name again?’ And that triggered Ryan even more.

‘I’m so annoyed because I now have two wet clothes because people haven’t filled their water bottles.’

As well as Ryan, the Aussie troupe includes singer Natalie Bassingthwaighte, MAFS star Jessika Power, Olympians Emily Seebohm and Mack Horton, cricketer Brad Hodge and actor Axle Whitehead.

The Brits are represented by Love Island stars Dani Dyer and Gabby Allen, rugby star Ben Cohen, cricketer Graeme Swann, Olympian Tobi Olubi and social media stars Jack Joseph and Cole Anderson-James.

SAS: Australia v England continues on Wednesday on Channel 7.

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