Savannah Guthrie holds back tears as she describes ‘deep disappointment with God’ and cruel torture she’s enduring this Easter without her mother Nancy

Savannah Guthrie held back tears as she described her ‘deep disappointment in God’ the first Easter without her beloved mother, Nancy, by her side.

The Today Show host, who recently returned to New York after more than two months with no indication of the whereabouts of his missing 84-year-old mother, delivered a personal message Sunday morning.

Savannah shared what this day means to her at a holiday service at her church, Good Shepard New York, as Nancy has yet to be seen or heard from since she mysteriously disappeared from her home in Tucson, Arizona, on February 1.

After explaining what Easter is all about, including family time and spring joy, Savannah said it was hard for her to handle the day.

‘Today we celebrate the promise of a new life that will never end in death. “But as I stand here today, I must tell you that there are moments when that promise seems irrevocably distant,” he said, his voice trembling.

‘When life itself seems much harder than death. These moments of deep disappointment with God, a feeling of complete abandonment.

‘For most of us there will come a time in our lives when these emotions dominate. In our tradition we are taught to take comfort in the fact that our friend Jesus, in his short life, experienced every emotion that we humans can feel.

‘Taking human form made him not a distant observer of our suffering, but one who experienced it firsthand. “But recently, during my own trial period, I wondered if Jesus ever experienced this particular wound that I felt,” Savannah shared, referring to the “unknown pain and uniquely brutal injury” she was enduring.

Nancy has not been seen or heard from since she mysteriously disappeared from her home in Tucson, Arizona, on February 1.

Since her mother disappeared, the family and media outlets have been sent a series of blackmail messages demanding money in bitcoin in exchange for Nancy.

None of the ransoms were paid, as the Guthrie family demanded proof of life from them but never received a ransom.

Authorities and the family also could not verify the authenticity of the ransom notes, although they agreed to pay.

Only a few people were interrogated during the investigation. No one was arrested.

Various evidence was also found in the house and surrounding area, including drops of Nancy’s blood on the front porch, a shattered doorbell camera, and various gloves.

Surveillance footage also shows a masked man outside his front door tampering with the doorbell camera before grabbing it.

About two weeks ago, Savannah announced that she would return to hosting the Today Show on Monday, April 6, but also warned that her return might be short-lived due to her mother’s kidnapping.

In a tearful interview with her NBC colleague Hoda Kotb, Savannah said of her Today colleagues: ‘I’m so grateful to have this family.

Various pieces of evidence were also found in the house (pictured) and the surrounding area, including drops of Nancy’s blood on the front porch, a shattered doorbell camera, and various gloves.

‘I see this as my family, my bigger family, and when times are tough, you want to be with your family, I want to be with my family,’ he said.

‘I don’t know if I can do this. ‘I don’t know if I’ll belong anymore, but I’d like to try.’

He has been off screen since the terrible news broke, suggesting that he is a fundamentally different person from the person last seen hosting Studio One at Rockefeller Center in New York.

‘I can’t go back and try to be something I’m not. But I can’t go back because they are my family. I think that’s part of my purpose right now,” he told Kotb in an episode of the interview that aired Friday.

‘I want to smile and when I do it will be real. My joy will be my protest. My joy will be my answer. And it’s so fun to be there.

‘And when it doesn’t happen, I’ll say so.’

In her interview with Kotb, Savannah also suggested that she might forgive Nancy’s kidnapper if he came forward.

“We need an answer, and someone has the power to help,” she said, before directly addressing her mother’s kidnapper and potential witnesses.

In a tearful interview with her NBC colleague Hoda Kotbm, Savannah said of her Today colleagues: ‘I’m so grateful to have this family.’

Savannah, her sister Annie and brother-in-law Tommaso Cioni are seen visiting the memorial growing up in front of Nancy’s home on March 2.

‘It is never too late, and when you do, the warmth of love and forgiveness will be greater than you can imagine.

‘I know what forgiveness is. And there is no greater happiness. And this joy awaits everyone who can hear it and find in his heart the desire to help.’

The Today show co-host shared how her Christian faith connected her with her mother and helped her survive this terrifying nightmare.

‘God is not telling us not to wrestle with it. This is not a cheap belief and my mother taught me this. “God only needs our real presence, and that’s what he did,” he said.

Despite her family’s pain, Savannah said she ‘never doubted’ God.

‘Faith is the way I stay connected to my mother. Oh my God, I’m holding hands with my mother. And I won’t let sadness win.’