Lorna Luxe, 43, confesses she didn’t have a bank card and ‘never paid a bill’ before husband John’s death as she opens up on ‘incredibly low moments’ in first interview since his passing

Lorna Luxe has admitted she didn’t even have a bank card before her husband John Andrews’ tragic death in February.

The 43-year-old influencer was married to John for 16 years and passed away in 2023, aged 64, following her diagnosis and subsequent battle with stage four adrenal cancer.

Revealing her harrowing experience to her 1.8 million followers, Lorna revealed how she now handles everything, not even having a bank card and ‘never paid any bills’ before her death.

Lorna appeared on Davina McCall’s show in her first interview since her death. Start Again He explained that John was genuinely worried about him and was afraid of leaving him without the practical knowledge to cope on his own.

‘Well, that sounds crazy, right? Because I was married to John for 16 years… I met him when I was 25. “I was living independently when I met him, but he quickly realized that paying the bills and doing practical things wasn’t much of an interest to me,” Lorna explained.

‘I found this quite boring. And he was more than happy to do it for me. And so over those years, he gradually achieved all of these things, so that all I had to do was get up, be myself, and go about my day. And everything was solved.

‘So when it got to that point, towards the end of last year we were both like ‘shit, we might not make it, we thought we had it this time, we didn’t this time’.

‘He started to really panic because he said: ‘You don’t even know how to pay. You don’t even have your own debit card. You don’t know how to do these things.’ And he was really worried.

‘And actually in the days leading up to his death, the last few conversations we had were about the fear that I was going to really screw up when he died because I didn’t know how to do anything.’

Reflecting on the reality of handling practical matters after John’s death, she continued: ‘It was quite scary. My house seems to be falling apart, a lot of bills are coming. There’s a lot of bills for John, too. It was a pretty scary time.

‘I really didn’t understand, I didn’t have a bank card. I think I had to order a debit card on the second day of John’s death because I didn’t have a debit card.

‘On the third day, I tried to pay a bill using her app but no payment went through. I called the bank and the guy said: “May I ask why you’re trying to log into John Andrews’ app?” And I said, “well, I don’t have any.” And he said: “Well, you’ve got to get your own because you can’t do that.”

‘I’ve had to make a lot of phone calls and listens, I’m still trying to sort things out. And there were so many things, that first week I thought, “Damn it, John. Why the hell did you leave me here? It’s a car accident.”

‘But every day I will open a letter piece by piece, in bite-sized pieces, and we will deal with it. And it’s still the same today.

‘And sometimes I get a few letters in the mail and I sit there and look at them and then at some point I sit down and say, come on, they’re not as scary as you think.’

Lorna also admitted she still has ‘incredibly bad moments’ as she revealed she finds weekends the hardest time to deal with.

‘Over those years, he gradually achieved all of this, so that all I had to do was get up, be myself, and go about my day. And everything is solved’

‘There are moments when I feel incredibly bad, usually for five or ten minutes, but then I’m like, ‘Yeah, now I’ve got to get back to the next thing,’ or something gets me out of it and I distract myself.

‘Loneliness also affects me at certain times of the week, I realized that there is a rhythm to it. My loneliness starts on Saturday afternoon because I work non-stop from Monday to Friday in the middle of the week and I have people working for me too, running a business, right? I’m here too, doing something work-related.

‘No one texts me about work on Saturday or Sunday, so on a Saturday afternoon, if I haven’t made plans, which I’ve started to do, I can feel it and think: “What am I going to do? I’ve got to make my tea but I’m not a good cook.”

‘So this is a quick job because it’s going to be dinner in the microwave. And all these little things he does. Before I knew it, it filled the void.’

‘Now of course I’m in this house and there’s literally no one there. There is no one to play with. And it’s something I’m getting used to.’

Lorna and John met when she was 25 and in the middle of her eight-year stint as a Virgin Atlantic air hostess, married shortly afterwards in New York and moved to live together in Hove, East Sussex and later Horsham and Warwickshire.

While John previously worked as a banker, he gave up his job in 2023 to focus on his health and help his wife work, following a cancer diagnosis and Lorna’s continued success as an influencer.

Lorna has always been candid about the advantages and pitfalls of their 21-year age gap, but has previously admitted she thought she had many more years with him.

Writing in The Telegraph last month, Lorna wrote: ‘I wasn’t destined to be a young widow just because John was 21 years my senior. Life doesn’t work that way…

‘John’s parents both lived well into their old age, reaching their 80s and 90s, so I truly believed we would spend decades together. But if he had been younger he wouldn’t have been John, so I wouldn’t change a thing.’

The article continued: ‘To be honest, I thought we had years left to spend together; he was 64, too young to truly die. Instead, I am 43 years old and living my life as a widow. ‘I can’t get used to that word or the fact that he’s gone.’